These
past 2 weekends I've been participating in classes in
storytelling/film making. It’s been such a
wonderful experience and has confirmed for me how much I want to tell my
stories. That’s my dream.
Hopefully,
you have a dream too - something that you want to do more than anything on this
earth. The thing you know you were born
to do.
I
hope you can find a way to move towards it – if you’re not doing it
already. This is important. Why?
Because if you aren't, then your soul is slowly dying. You can feel it – that gnawing sense of
dissatisfaction that you can’t seem to shake.
When I’m doing my thing – especially writing – it quiets that feeling
and bolsters me for the things that are not so exciting.
It’s
important because you only get this one life.
That’s it. That’s all. You don’t know how much time you have
left. If you’re not actively pursuing
what you’re meant to do you’re WASTING TIME.
Yes – wasting time. It’s that
mercenary. That’s not me; that’s
life. There are no do overs.
The
trick is, we’re going to have to be courageous and go for it. Why does it take courage? Because the thing
we want the most is usually the thing that scares the holy living shit out of
you.
I’m
scared too. It crazy to realize you’re a
writer at 35. It’s crazy to become a filmmaker at 38.
It’s
the feeling that I can’t shake. It feels
like a weight around my neck that’s getting heavier and heavier. I tried to ignore it. I got depressed. Only when I’m in the throes of storytelling,
do I feel a peace that cannot be gained anywhere else.
Not
through yoga, not when I get a bonus, not when I've had a good stiff
drink. It’s only right when I’m doing
what I’m supposed to be doing.
You
need courage because not everyone in your life will understand. They won’t or they can. You want to be a lawyer or a doctor? That
they get. You want to become an artist
or quit your job and travel? That they don’t
get. They’ll deride your hopes.
They
want you to stay on the island with them.
What
if you make it? What if it works?
Then
they will have no excuse.
