I honestly feel like I’m developing a form of adult ADHD. There is so (too) much stimulation going on in my life, and I don’t mean in a good way. Between email, the internet, TV, my kindle, instant messaging and my phone I am overloaded. Everyday, for hours at a time, my eyes flutter and dance between multiple computer screens of various shapes and sizes. My mind moves too rapidly through things and settling on one task before I abruptly thrust myself into another is a repeated occurrence.
Bottom line: it’s nuts.
During my birthday week, I got a massage. It was awesome, of course, and like every single time I get a massage, I think to myself ‘I’ve got to do this regularly’. The muscles in my upper back consistently feel like they’re on fire and I’m clear that it’s stress related. But this time I had a different thought after trying to figure out how I could incorporate regular massages into my schedule. What if I rearranged my life so I minimized stress and didn't need prescriptive massages?
I don’t want to keep putting band-aids on bullet wounds. I want to stop getting shot.
I’m committing to getting back to the basics of life. Gratitude. Simplicity. Exercise. One thing at a time. I’m stopping the evil carousel of trying to do multiple things at once. The thought that it’s possible with any real success is insidious. It’s moving a million things one millimeter, instead of moving one thing a million millimeters. I just want to do good work - applying that standard to whatever is in front of me at that moment. I’d like to immerse myself fully in what I’m doing and just be in the moment with that.
It will be a challenge, not whipping my head (and my mind) back and forth like windshield wipers on a stormy night. I will have to be patient with myself and not give up after the first, or few hundred fails. I will have to, because I want more of a life than this. I want to be present for all of it, not feel like I’m on stage spinning 20 plates. Naked.
Nope. I’m going to spin 3 plates and put on a one-piece.
